Self-Sabotage

One should be aware of her own tricks on herself. Sometimes our fear of disappointment leads us to a semi-conscious self-destruction, we ruin everything so that it will not look like our faults. I found out that I do it all the time; I do something in a lacking way or don't do it at all because I am afraid of failing. Sometimes I even devise nice coherent trains of thought to convince myself of the bullet-proof blame placing I have put together. It can be difficult to tell between a revelation and self-deception, and one should be watching for both.